Monday, December 01, 2003 :::
Well Thanksgiving has come and gone...just another holiday in the past.
I think I ate my weight in pie. I've got a lot to be thankfull for, but mostly, I need to be thankfull of myself. Because if there's one thing I learned this thanksgiving its that the only person you can count on in this life is yourself.
I was let down by a few people recently- people that I respected and held in high esteem, but you should never place someone on a platform too high, because theyre bound to fall.
My best friend from home who I've known over half of my life is getting married not this summer but next summer- so thats odd. I mean, she's the girl that I played the "wedding game" with- we planned our weddings together in childhood and now the actual thing is going to happen. It was good to see her- we were kids together & now were women- it's just an interesting transition to be able to watch.
I have 18 days left in Boston until I leave to go home, which means theres 29 days till I'm in LA. 8 years of waiting have amounted to this- and I'm not sure what to expect now, all I know is there's this big blank slate in front of me with endless opportunity and I'm more worried about my friendships & family then about my career. I just need to keep reminding myself that we're born alone and we die alone, as negative as it may be. Actually, its not negative, its realistic.
I saw Love, Actually over the break- really cute movie- I liked it a lot, except there were a lot of stereotypes about Americans in it- the president of the U.S. was Billy Bob Thorton, slutty American girls were Shannon Elizabeth & Denise Richards, etc. One story like bothered me a lot : this one woman was in love with her co-worker for over 2 years & he was in love with her & it just didnt happen for them- for a few reasons that I'll leave out incase you reading this should see the movie- it was both frustraiting for me having been in similar positions throught my life- but also eye opening- you dont know whats going on in the other persons life- they may want to be with you just as badly as you want to be with them, but there's just something in the way always preventing it. But, I digress: Hot accents, Good Movie.
When I was home I shot my video project for the web that I'm VERY excited about, I think it's going to be great- I can't wait to edit it & for everyone to see it- I'll let you all know when its done & posted so you can check it out.
I need to do some writing- I keep saying that, damn.
So, I recently finished reading this book "Power, Money, Fame, Sex: A users guide"- very interesting read for anyone interested or even not interested in those things- if you want them it gives you tacktics to get them, & if you don't it educates you in what to watch out for in others actions.
Here's what I want( in this order): Become the 1st high profile casting director, publish a book of poetry, become a movie critic & get my own show, retire & have babies, publish my memoirs. Yup, I think that would be perfect.
AND: the name change should be legal within the next 2 weeks!!!
So thats about it for now, look for new writing at some point..soon...I hope.
Love to you all,
~J
::: posted by Jen at 3:10 PM
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