Friday, September 12, 2003 :::
So I've been told a lot in my life that I should remember people when I'm famous. Allow me to elaborate: In FL, I was the person who's friends parents said that they wanted to come vacation in my mansion in LA someday. My mothers co-workers said that they would watch for me on the big screen. And this all made sense to me, since I wanted to be an actress which is a very glamorus profession that thrusts one into the public eye. However, since changing career paths to the more under-appreciated and much less public profession of casting, people still say similar things to me. My advisor told me to remember her when I'm famous because she'll be calling me for work. My boss who is the owner of a prestegious casting company in the city, told me today to remember her when I'm famous & to call her when I'm casting in Boston, etc. And it made me think. Casting is not something that one is generally famous for. So what is it about me, or anyone else for that matter, that people associate with impending fame? I ask this both actually & rhetorically. Its incredibly flattering and a great ego boost to know that others appreciate what I do & can easily visualize me being successful at it, but it's also scary- what if I don't become wildly successful? Will I be dissapointing all those people who saw something in me? Or worse, will I dissapoint myself. It's scary hearing stories from friends who have recently graduated because they all seem to be telling me the same thing, "STAY IN SCHOOL- STAY AWAY FROM THE REAL WORLD"- everyones either having a hard time finding work or adjusting to life, or both, & even though I've had a plan for as long as I can remember, I'm starting to worry about that happening to me. Although I know myself, & I know that it won't, its disheartening to hear so many people I know & care for go through such difficult times & warn me of what I am soon to experiance. But I've got a plan & a vision for my future plus the support of friends, family, & co-workers, & buckets of self confidence, so I guess thats one leg up on whatever difficulties get thrown at me in the not-so-distant future.
I'll keep you all posted on my crazy mind spasms as my last semster in Boston continues....
~Jen
::: posted by Jen at 10:59 PM
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