Wednesday, September 11, 2002 :::
"Ain't no particular sign I'm more compatibale with. I just want your extra time & your kiss." I'm wearing my someday future ring. I feel secure. I am loved by a lot of wonderful people. I've got great friends. & as Rufus says, I'm just a one (wo)man (gal)guy & that one (gal)guy is me. I tend to place my needs on the back burner to make the people that I care about happy. But that just doesn't cut it anymore. And I now refuse to settle for the insufficiant amounts of time & emotions others are willing to give me. Because that just doesn't cut it either. Maybe I should be a bitch. Maybe I should be mean to guys. Because every relationship I see lately is made up of of bitchy girl & a subserviant guy. But that's just not me. A friend said to me today that I need to find a guy who will worship me. I don't nessicarilly NEED worship. I'd just like an equal, normal relationship. I've got the salt but I'm out of tears. My heat feels clear but my chest is congested somewhere in the heart area. And every song lyric is my life right now. "Well, maybe nothing lasts forever. I dont need forever after this. But your laughter won't let me go so I'm holding on this way. Did you know? Could you tell? Now everythings so wrong."
::: posted by Jen at 10:36 PM
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