Tuesday, April 23, 2002 :::
I went to bed at around 5:30am. I wasnt tired I guess. I think I'm a wanna-be insomniac, but I settle for just being a wanna-be vampire-out all night sucking the life out of myself & others only to sleep in the sun until noon, or later, depending on when classes are. But last night I was talking to my brother online- he emailed me the first part of his memoirs he's in the process of completing. It was really interesting in a way I cant explain to be able to read a pre-qual to my own autobiography. It moved me to tears. I also found out, through him, that my grandmother is moving to Arizona when my mom moves to Chicago. My unle & aunt live in Arizona & my aunts parents are in an assisted living facility there, & since my uncle's paying, she has no choise. Im so scared that I'm not going to see her before she passes away. Shes the only person that has ever been truely GOOD to me my entire life. I miss my nana, I'm gonna write her a letter & see if my mom & I can go visit her over my x-mas break. We'll see I suppose. It's just upsetting. I'm obstaining from the "Castle Olyimpics"-a spirit week esq thing of games, etc. Not because I'm "too cool" or even too busy to participate, but because I'm not here anymore. I am 100% removed from what are my last days in the castle. I was sitting watching a movie last night & I swear there was someone sitting next to me who I know is thousands of miles away. It's just 9 days now. I feel like a kid waiting for Christmas morning.
::: posted by Jen at 12:53 PM
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