Thursday, October 09, 2003 :::
I promise to write new poetry soon. That is as much a promise to myself as it is to all of you.
I just keep thinking about how quickly college has gone by. I feel like I've really had the full college experiance- and now I'm about to begin the full life experiance. While it's scary, I'm getting more confident every day about my abilities and career opportunities available to me. I've been thinking a lot about going into agent training after college if there arent any great positions available for casting, so we'll see where the journey takes me. Agents to have a lot of money & power, & those are 2 of my fave. things, however they lack the creative aspect that casting has. Yeah thats just been on my mind lately.
Also, it seems like I dont know anyone at this school anymore. Most of my good friends are in LA (with the exception of LJ, Katie & my sisters), so it's odd. I think friendships are beginning to be tested & it will be really interesting to see who I actually hang out with when I'm out there. Maybe I'm just in a paranoid mood this evening. I've starting not trusting people, which I didn't even realize until I just typed it.
I'm just lonely I guess. Not lonely for friends because even though Emerson is overrun with freshman (or so it seems)- I've still got great friends in Boston. I'm just lonely for companionship. Empty crushes abound. Empty fantasies plague me at night, & I've had trouble sleeping lately as a result- & some odd dreams too.
But yeah I think thats about it. Nothing too exciting, just working, learning, interning, checking one thing off of my To Do list at a time..still need to change my name...gonna do that at some point in the next 2 weeks...
Sidenote: It's interesting how time can make you see someone in a new light- and how fast time goes.
I think that about does it for tonight. Tune in next week as our heroine saves the day with her hotter then life partners Danny Masterson & Jon Stewart....
and now I'm delusional.
Good night
::: posted by Jen at 1:35 AM
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