Wednesday, August 13, 2003 :::
 

The following is an email I got today that made me smile. I guess people do actually read this. It put a smile on my face to make me know that people can relate to me & I'm actually making an impact of some sort. Keep any compliments or criticisms comin'!

Hello,
I was on a Castle Well page, and somehow, through links, I ended
up on your website, I just got back from the Castle this past May,
and my memories are still fresh in my head. Your journal is amazing,
I'm sure people must tell you that all the time, but the way you
phrase things, and exactly what you chose to write about is very
powerful. You are a great writer, and I just wanted to commend you
on your site. I also kept a journal while I was there, but it was
more like a "I did this, then i went here, then i did this..." type
of thing, but you definitely captured your emotions well, and I
think that is very difficult to do.

Great Job, I am very impressed.

::: posted by Jen at 5:40 PM

Tuesday, August 05, 2003 :::
 

Ok, so it's been a while, I know, & I also know that it seems every time I make an entry lately I'm saying "ok its been a while." I've just been very freakin busy- working almost every day & interning so when I have a day off I like to just relax.
Whats new: I've moved out of the ghetto for good. I'm now living in Jen White's old room, shackin up with Miss Jackson-if-you're-nasty, and I'm sooo happy. No more psycho's who destroy my personal belongings no more strangers sleeping in my living room, no more moldy boxers on the bathroom floor- just A/C, my own bathroom, drinking, smoking, CABLE TV for the 1st time in what seems like forever which means all day TLC & Discovery channel watching when I can, plus it takes me about 2 minutes to get to work. The move was stressful and most of my stuff is in storage, so I'm living like a minimalist at the moment. Just me and my computer. I was off line for a while because the wire on my battery was frayed (& has been for a while)- but it finally broke completly & I had to order a new one from the discontinued parts office at Toshiba. But now I've got it and all is as it should be. So now I'm just working & waiting for my next move into my new apt. for the fall & working on the name change- for all of you that dont know, I'm changing my last name, as soon as I find one where I see it & think "THATS IT- THATS THE ONE"- so I'm going through family names & researching other Hebrew names & I've got a list I'm thinking through, so the decision is coming along. I've got some great jazz cd's, I'm chilling out and enjoying my summer stress-free for now. Love life's kinda empty. There's been some guys interested in me lately, but I just don't want them. I know what I want when I see it, I just havent found it yet. (Except for my unrequited crush at work, but whatev.) Are there any guys out there who have their lives together- I mean have real direction, are somewhat my age, with a great sense of humor & are somewhat attractive?? If you know one, give him my number, eh? For now I'm content with girls nights & B.O.B., but everyone get's lonely sometimes, and I'm getting really sick of always being single. I think it's about my turn.
Love to you all.
~Jen
Song of the moment: Love Me or Leave Me by Nina Simone
"Say you love me, leave me let me be lonely. You won't believe me but I love you only. I'd rather be lonely then happy with somebody else. You might find the night time the right time for kissin'. Night time is my time for just reminisin'. Regretting instead of forgetting with somebody else. There'll be no one unless that someone is you. I intend to be independantly blue. I want your love, don't want to borrow, have it today to give back tomorrow. Your love is my love, there's no love for nobody else."

::: posted by Jen at 1:44 AM